Chapter : Trip down Memory Lane.

I was strolling around getting some fresh air to breathe and clearing my mind before I start worrying all the silly things that I’m going to face soon. It was a smart move to get out of the house to clear your mind because I just started to remember things that made me smile. These pictures I have taken are not in order but just something that I just want to share.

It was raining heavily before this, but look at the clear blue sky.

The sun peeking out from the clouds.

I remember when I was a kid, I love sucking the "juice" out. I didn't know why I did it even. I was pretty odd then and still odd now. 

Something caught my eye, a little baby sitting alone in the grass. Reminds me that I was too young and innocent once where everything to my eyes were just things that made me really curious and eager to try it out.

The baby's dad came to fix her shoe, then it brought back memories that I used to spend some quality time with my own dad when I was a child. 

Growing up, you learn to spend time with friends or maybe someone you love and somehow, lesser time with your families...

One of the many playground "toys" I used to play when I was growing up. Trying to race to see who can climb to the top the fastest. I think I used to fall into the hole because I wasn't careful.

Another one of my favourite "toys" that I enjoyed playing. I still try to slide down just to relive my childhood days. 

My all time favourite "toy"! I love to sit on it and thinking that the higher I could swing, the closer I am in touching the sky. Though the irony is that I'm afraid of heights.

I always wanted to have really long legs, but then I learn to love myself and accepted my flaws. 

When I was a kid, I always thought that clouds were made of cotton and I love to see what sorts of form the clouds will take shape.

This really brought back one of my fondest memories. I remember during my college days and my group and I were supposed to make a short film and I had to sit inside the trolley while my best friend pushed me along so I would be able to record the actor's footsteps. We have gotten a lot of stares from the passerby and one particular kid asked his dad-

"Daddy look, the jie jie (big sister) so big still sit in the trolley. Like little girl."

"Don't look, maybe the jie jie doing something," his dad replied. 

I didn't know how to react but I do know that I was slightly hurt being called a little girl by some elementary kid! I was 18 that time. Oh boy.

People said that I have grown up to be as beautiful as a flower. Mainly it's my parent's friends who says that to me cause they have seen me since I was drooling and wearing diapers.

I always said that flowers were a waste of money because it just wither and die and you have to throw it away. Then it got me thinking whether I would receive it when I'm dead. Scary and depressing thought, I know. 

When I first came to Brisbane, these birds were EVERYWHERE and I thought they were harmless at first till they came after me to steal my food. 

That's my hand trying to reach for the sun...sky...I always tend to try my best in everything I do in order to make my parents proud and to let them know that their hard-earned money didn't go to waste.

I had a lovely walk even though it was for a short while. Little things that I see whether I'm on my way to the train station or to the mall, it just triggers my memories that were kept hidden away. So take a walk once in a while, it might do you some good.

Chapter : What was I doing?

A random blog post of the day! I know I’m supposed to be oh-so-hardworking doing my assignments and focusing on my soon-to-be-my-worst-nightmare final project for my masters but let’s say that I’m easily distracted. Nah, I’m lying. I’m a huge ass procrastinator. I’m honest, at least so I have credit for that! 

What I have been doing lately was watching some Hong Kong Cantonese drama which I have bought when I was in Malaysia for my summer holidays and yes it does comes with English subtitles because I’m don’t understand the Chinese language even if it kills me. But I normally love watching these dramas when they are set in the olden days. Where they have to wear those many layers of clothing, hair tied up and have fanciful ornaments and the martial arts which I know that in the drama it’s all bogus but it is because I’m easily amused by it so I be all starry eyed when I see some kung fu moves. It’s like giving a kid ice cream and they will be all starry eyed and loves you to bits. Now you know my secret to getting kids to love me. Ha!

Then I have also been watching some anime on my hard disks, mainly Bleach as I was trying to catch up with my old episodes but now I have stopped watching it because I wanted my brains to take a brain from watching way too much anime before I turned into a 2d anime character which no matter how much I bleed I still can save the day or no matter how deep my wound is, I still managed to survive just by some superb healing skills. 

Also I have been watching some English dramas such as Castle, it’s very interesting. Do watch it, basically a mystery novelist and sexy cop become partners to solve crimes. Then I also started watching NCIS, another mystery solving drama based mainly for marines though I shouldn’t start eating food when I watch it because when the doctor does autopsy on the corpse and it shows all the internal organs and stuffs like that (yes, I know it’s fake still) I just get grossed out. I have low tolerance to these kinds of things. I know, it’s pathetic. 

Ah! Just today I was watching this video blogger on youtube, Natalie Tran. I was reading through some men’s style magazine (don’t ask) and they were doing a list of 23 real sexy, real women thing and she was one of them and I decided to check her out. She’s awesome and hilarious and some of the stuffs she says or do I can relate to it. Do watch her if you have the time, maybe you don’t get her. Maybe you think she’s just another psychotic blogger. To me, she’s awesome. Even though I just started watching her…so go watch her cause I asked you to!

I have to get back to editing my essay now so..have a great day!

Chapter : A Long Distance Date

A very interesting day happened. For the first time in my entire life, I actually experienced a long distance date with someone. Yes, you are reading it right, LONG distance date. So one might think how the world can that exists? Apparently in my world, it does

Well, the special person (my date) prepared some stuffs for me to read and follow like a treasure map but not quite searching for a treasure you know? I don’t know how to explain it but I hope somehow you are able to get a picture.

So waking up and getting ready to set off for my little adventure! Though it is supposedly to be winter, but the weather was really hot as though it was still summer! I was actually sweating under the sun walking around. It was interesting because I get to know my date better though he was like gazillion miles away. It’s like talking to yourself but not quite because you are actually reading what was written on the paper and pretending to have a normal conversation with the person in your head. Oh dear, I’m spewing nonsense. Let’s move on…

Walking around South Brisbane then towards South Bank where I normally attend my classes there. My date told me to text him when I arrived at the Graduate Center. So I did, and then he told me to find an “alphabet” looking structure and there would be a note for me. Honestly speaking, I got freaked out because I was like a note, for me? In the structure? Am I being stalked? So like looking around my surroundings thinking there would be a suspicious looking person keeping watch at me knowing my every move while I approached the structure and truthfully enough there was a note there and I was like super spooked because I was like thinking, how in the world did the note get there? Then I remembered that I read stuffs about him leaving notes previous for a girl that he used to like. So I assumed that the note was left for her two years ago, surviving the rain, wind and sun. It’s like the Holy Grail in paper form! But later he told me that he asked an accomplice to help him put the note there and I was like thinking that I have finally retrieved a “holy grail”!

Continuing my journey, walking across the bridge while reading the stuffs that was written in the paper, I realized that my date has a very interesting past when it comes to girlfriends and drunken friends. At least he did know how to enjoy life to the fullest. That’s a great positive thinking in life there! so eventually our date came to an end because there wasn’t anything left for me to follow. It’s an interesting thing because I took pictures of the places that I visited while holding a so called mug shot of his face with me. Passerby’s thought that I was insane because I was taking pictures of a paper with a person’s face against the background using my PHONE. Yeah, I didn’t have a camera because the battery wasn’t charged properly hence I had to use my alternative camera. My phone.   

Went back home, edited the stuffs and send to my date and hopefully he enjoyed himself as much as I did while smiling like an idiot taking pictures of a paper within a background. Maybe they know that I’m an animator, hence known as an art student so therefore the reason and understanding why I would be taking pictures of a paper. Us art students have the license to be unreasonable and crazy.

Now I have to get back to work. Final year in my Masters and I’m praying really hard that I will be able to succeed in whatever I have to do. Wish me luck my dear people!

Chapter : 3 YEARS!

Wow, I can’t believe that I actually have this blog so 3 years already! Though I’m not much of a blogger because I rarely update my blog and half the time most of the stuffs I write in here are just for my own personal ramblings and not much of “stuffs-that-you-can-learn”.

Maybe some might find “enlightenment” by reading my blog because at times I will go into a deep thought and talk about life. Ha, funny…me talking about life when at times I barely manage to get my life together! But looking back at all my entries, which there isn’t much to begin with, I have realized that I somewhat grew up? I’m not sure how to say it.

It is like looking back at my old artworks from my college days (well, I did it yesterday!) and laughing at all my hideous artworks that I have drawn or reminiscing all those sleepless nights which I have to go through in order to complete my assignments. Those were all the fun times. It is like my blog, laughing at all the posts that I have written and remembering all those good times which I have blogged about in my entries. I also found one of my OLD diaries which I have written when I was a teen (oh my, am I THAT old?!!) and I was laughing at how childish I was then.

Now, I do admit that I’m still childish, after all, I still have my childish heart keep within me but when the time comes for me to act like an adult, I would. Not like last time where I feel that the entire world is going against me or my parents are out to get me and stuffs like that. I just decided to take things as it goes though I admit that I have my outbursts once in a while but I’m a happier person now. I don’t fight with my parents that often, most of the time it is just a few disagreements here and there and everything will be back to normal unlike those times where every single day without fail (okay, I think not that much…) that I would argue with my parents over the silliest matter. I guess I have learnt to accept everything that is thrown to me and then forgetting it. Less stress, more life, more laughter. You will look younger too! Ha!
 

So till then, a short entry from me because I tend to write a novel which half the time doesn’t make sense! To my blog, I know I’m late, but HAPPY 3 YEARS!

Chapter : Routines

As always, when I start updating my blog it is either

1.       I have nothing else better to do.

2.       Something exciting has happened.

3.       I just had the urge to do so.

But mostly the reason is number 1 because half of the time I really have nothing else better to do. I basically been bumming the whole time these days and occasionally working on my freelance work for Rowan together with Sylvia. But on the other hand, my mom recently got infected by the H1N1 disease (and though who doesn’t know, it is called the swine flu and yes, I’m serious that there are some people who doesn’t know that swine flu is called H1N1) and everyone in the family have to be quarantined at home.

Truthfully speaking, I firmly believe that my parents told me that all of us have to be quarantined at home so that I wouldn’t disappear into the night or day when my mom might need me the most to do all her demands. It’s because my mom is currently at home, can’t even go out to do her normal daily stuffs hence my brother and I were the only options that she can control give orders for us to do. So my entire week was filled with mental torture and physical torture. I was stuck at home for the entire week plus it doesn’t help both that I was “bedridden” for two weeks and only recently recovered till that quarantined matter came by.

My daily routine consists of (I’m serious; I think my body now works on clockwork by doing these routines already!)

·         Waking up around noon

·         Check on my mom

·         Mom says she is hungry, off to buy lunch

·         Lunch is served

·         Cleaning up the dishes

·         Checking whether there are water in the flasks and bottles.

·         Boil water

·         Fill water

·         Check laundry

·         Chuck laundry into the dryer

·         Clothes in the dryer into the basket

·         Rest for a while

·         Time for dinner, off with my brother to buy dinner

·         Dinner is served

·         Cleaning up again

·         Filling up bottles with water

·         Check laundry again

·         Chuck into dryer

·         Clothes into basket

·         Relax / Sleep

Then the next day it continues. I have been doing that particular routine for a week and I haven’t been out at all meeting with my friends, catching up, watching movies or even SHOPPING! I’m like rolling around at home, basically just chatting and doing my freelance work. I never felt so much like a hermit before! Okay, I have to admit that when I’m in Australia I’m mostly at home but it never felt so…torturing? Crap, I can’t find the words to express my feelings.

Just another day then I’m out of the house meeting up with people again! Though truthfully speaking that this week was actually filled with meetings and stuffs that I wanted to do before my mom fell ill. At least she is better now because she can come up to my room and ask me to do some stuff before heading back to her own room watching her Korean dramas.

So now I’m taking a break before heading off to buy dinner for the rest of the family. Man, one more day then I will be off gallivanting again.  

Chapter : Happy New Year!

Well, a new post (AFTER SO LONG I KNOW MY FAULT I’M SORRY!!) to jet off the awesome new year! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL WHO ARE CURRENTLY READING MY BLOG! If you ask me what my new year’s resolutions are, I can tell you that I have none. Zero and I’m serious.

This time my new years were spent pretty relaxing. My good friend also I consider him as an elder brother I never had, planned a little trip up to Bukit Tinggi (High Hills) for the countdown but the funniest thing was that we never bothered, we missed the countdown because we were busy entertaining ourselves with mahjong! Hopeless, yes I know but still there are many more countdowns to attend in the future and the only difference is that it is the company.

Well, to summarize up my life experiences last year, I could say that I had a lot of emotional ups and downs. Let’s see whether I could put my “life” experiences in point forms. 

• Graduated with a degree in animation.

• Pursuing my masters.

• Broke up with my ex.

• Was in depression for a bit.

• Lost a lot of weight.

• Enjoying single life.

• Meeting up with old friends.

• Meeting new people along the way.

• More nonsensical.

• Got closer to people and have formed an awesome friendship bond.

That should be everything, I suppose. Now the New Year, I have to continue with my free lance work and also continue on with my studies and then find a job. Now I’m trying to live and take the present instead of thinking so far ahead in the future. Like I have said, take one step at a time and never look back! 

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Chapter : Random Post.

Finally I have completed all of my assignments! Enjoying my freedom for the time being before I have to start doing all those chores that I have neglected during my sleepovers at my university. All those late nights and snacking made me into a whole new fugly person! Why did I say that? Well, I’m currently battling my pimples outbursts (which does not help that I tend to press them turning them into scars! Oh no! There goes my “beautiful” face!) and the little extra pounds have attached themselves to the most unwanted place. THE BELLY! Seriously, can I learn a technique where I could move those little extra pounds to places which need extra pounds? 

Today after handing up my last forsaken assignment, I was ecstatic! But not as much compared to my friends who are graduating this year because they managed to complete their FINAL film. Congrats to all of them! I will miss their screening and graduation though plus their company during my late nights in university. Oh well, friendships that were made lasts forever unless something bad happened in between and the friendships turns sour. Okay, that last bit just spoils the entire mood right? I’m sorry. 

On the other hand, after reading blogs that were written by famous bloggers, they have my uttermost respect! Why? I have no idea how in the world they find the time to upload pictures for everything! Even I find it quite tiring just to upload a few photos of MYSELF camwhoring yet alone them posting up event photos, tutorial photo or photos from their travels. How do they do it? Is it some special skill they have developed overtime after blogging for so long? Or it is just some awesome determination to post pictures AND write a blog entry on the same day about some event they attended? What is it? I have no idea. The only determination I possess it when my assignment deadlines are approaching and I have to complete it in time. 

Hopefully I will be able to apply that particular determination that I have for my assignments to determination to other purposes in life. Okay, end of entry. It is a short one and quite a random one because I took a nap around 10pm and woke up around 1am. I have no idea how am I going back to sleep now.