I have decided to update since I will be flying off to Brisbane this Sunday for a weeks’ holiday despite the fact that the main reason I’m going there is to check out the universities there and also visit my sister. I will try my best to have fun even though my dad would mostly be with me three quarter of the time but I am keeping my hopes up that he will give me a certain amount to spend and let me do a little bit of shopping. My sister emailed me saying that the weather is pretty cold right now so she suggested us to bring some warm clothes. Well, I don’t really mind I guess since half the time Malaysia is burning hot.
Nicole is back from the US for a while but I couldn’t catch up with her because I was busy with my portfolios and packing the things that I am suppose to bring to Brisbane. To make matters worse, I barely completed my portfolio and I have finally resolved into just chucking in what I have now just to give to the universities. At least for what’s worth, I have submitted something, I guess. I just hope that I will be able to see her before she flies back to US. But unfortunately I am coming back on the 3rd of September and I have the feeling somehow that she would be on her way back to the states.
Speaking of the States, my high school friend, Irene just left to Minnesota to study there. She left on Monday and Allie, Naveen and I went to see her off. Actually we didn’t really see her off because we arrived at the airport so late that she has already checked in. Luckily enough that we managed to catch her and pass her the present before she went in. She reached at US, 33 hours later. That is freaking long if you tell me. I just wonder what happens if I am going to study in Canada if I do get in, how long my flight would take. I wonder.
Since I have already started talking about high school friends, well I guess it is time to explain a tad bit what is going on with my “love” life. Ha. Honestly speaking, after meeting up with him, he and I just gotten closer without me realizing. I mean I just found out that he was actually going after me even though he gave such pretty obvious hints such as
“Yeah, you are so pretty already. I should just go after you.”
“Sure a lot of guys go after you, since you are so pretty already. Don’t know whether I have the chance or not.”
“Haih, I wish you are here with me.”
“I wish I was there with you right now. But unfortunately I can’t.”
And half the time I was pretty oblivious to that remarks because I thought he was joking until we went out on a date. Actually he asked me first but I have previous engagement to attend and had to decline his offer but eventually I called him up and asked him out for dinner instead just to “repay” his invitation. He picked me up from my house around 7 something and then we left for dinner. The conversation went like this,
“Where do you want to eat?” he asked.
“Me? I don’t know. You picked me up, why don’t you decide?” I replied.
“Huh? Me? Why must be me? I bring you out mah, so you decide where to eat,” he said.
“I am a very simple person. Eat at mamak stalls or hawker stalls also can. As long there is food and drink,” I said.
“Simple person ar, I see. Hmm…” he replied and begins to think for a bit. Then he said, “Okay, have you been to San Francisco Steakhouse?”
“Yeah. But that was a really long time ago,” I said.
“Okay, do you want to eat there?” he asked.
I was startled at first because that place is pretty expensive even for a teenager that isn’t working but I did say okay and we went there for dinner. I was joking with him saying,
“Wah, suddenly you are so rich can bring us go eat at San Fran?”
“No lah, I asked for my allowance in advance so can bring you go eat nice food mah,” was his reply.
“Huh? Really? But you don’t have too. I have already told you that I am a pretty simple girl. Don’t really need to eat such fancy food,” I said.
He just laughed and when we reached there I felt really awkward walking into the place because it seems that the restaurant was mostly adults or families dining. So I felt out of place walking in there as though we are some rich people eating fancy food on a weekday. We sat down and I left the food ordering to him. While waiting for our food to arrive we just started talking about ourselves or what we have been up too for the past few years because we haven’t kept in touch after we left high school.
When the food arrived, he did the “honours” serving the food because we decided to share the food between us because I told him that I couldn’t consume a lot which is technically true due to the fact that I have gotten sick for a week and the capacity of me able to shove food down my throat is pretty limited. After we ate our fill he paid for the bill which he paid it of course in cash. I wanted to pour in my part of the bill but he refused because he said that he is bringing me out on a date or something like that.
After dinner we head off to One Utama to catch a movie because I said that since it was still pretty early, we should just catch a movie. I suggested the Simpsons because I haven’t watched it yet and my fellow friends told me that it was good. He agreed to it and he bought the tickets. While waiting in line, I felt that he was really extremely close to me in a sense I could feel his hands sometimes holding my hand or putting it around my waist. I didn’t flinch of course because I was just acting as though I felt nothing.
Inside the cinema which was pretty empty because the Simpsons have been out for quite sometime and most of the people probably have watched it already. When the show started, it was pretty normal because he and I were at our seats and watching, then suddenly his hands just took mine and held it. I guess I felt comfortable with it because I haven’t held hands with a guy for quite sometime I suppose? I don’t know. But later on I realized that I was putting my head on his shoulder and was still holding hands with him. After the movie he sends me back home, and I gave him a kiss on a cheek to thank him for the dinner and movie.
Since that night, he and I have been visiting each other’s houses just to meet up and talk and to tell you the truth, one time when we hanging out at my place, we have progressed to a certain stage where we weren’t only hugging or pecking each other on the cheek. It is more like we are just pecking each other on the lips. It felt really awkward since we were doing it outside my house and half the time we were afraid that my dad would come and catch us hanging out together holding hands. Now this is where my problems come in.
I have been telling everyone that I really enjoyed my single life and when I stumbled upon him and dating him which I am serious that he and I aren’t attached but just on the dating basis to see whether we are suitable with each other. It seems that it is fun because I can have fun with no strings attached but something just kept bothering me because he has calls from a girl and well I do know which girl calls him even though I haven’t met her before but just know her name.
I shouldn’t be jealous or anything because he and I are just dating that is what I have felt. But seeing him always talking to her I asked him why isn’t he with her as in dating her. He said that it couldn’t work out or something I couldn’t remember and it got me thinking. Will this be the same thing like my last ex? Paranoia engulfed me because I didn’t want the same thing to happen to me again. Even though if it does, I can take it but I just don’t want to be treated as a fool I suppose.
So now, I am trying my best to keep my distance from him and hope that I wouldn’t be so involved with him. I mean our relationship is okay in a sense that we can talk about anything and make each other laugh but it seems that we barely text message each other nor call each other to begin with. So most of the time I am the one who starts the conversation with him then he will only reply but only a few times for that matter. For what is worth, I have a feeling that I should just enjoy this while I can and see how things go. It is because I will probably flying overseas and will be meeting more new candidates there, right? Who knows?